Wonders

I hate relationship

2009-04-09T20:13:00.001-07:00

all my relationships are tortures.. it sucks
the feeling in your heart that soury feeling it totally
ruins u.. i couldnt study now.. WTH i feel like scolding vulgars vulgar vulgars
NON STOP!!! i want to vent it all out!! i hate all this shit!! AHHH

HAHA

2009-04-05T03:40:00.000-07:00

lol today went to get my new bag :] WOO lol the bag orginates from taiwan wonders heh o.o

=)

2009-03-07T05:28:00.001-08:00

Guess it has been a long time since i blog. haha. lol.. haiz.. kind of feel tired and bored living in this world.. i have been bumping into lots of unlucky stuff.. everywhere i go i would run straight in to solid wall.. kind of hate it.. although i did try thinking positive but it didnt work out.. lol nvm anw got to end it here.. parents are nagging.

Hope to love you once again .

WA SEI!!

2009-01-29T05:07:00.000-08:00

Pang sai.. one month is almost over, i haven't even started my revision or even did any of my homeworks.. hmm don't ask me why cause i myself am puzzled too. kind of crappy, UGHH!! just remembered.. a stack of home work that i have collected for the whole month is still waiting for me to complete.. WA SEI!!! yea i know kind of shocking.. haiz.. somehow i don't know why but i always fell asleep in class... it has been like one month ?? er.. maybe 3/4 of a month?? NOT JUST THAT!!! i slept through all the lessons excluding recess and PE.. Oh yea that reminds me.. I'm A HANDICAPPED NOW !!! got a sprained leg couldn't take part in any sports.. SIAN RIGHT.. yar never mind end of story got to stop here full stop the end lalala lalala lalal bye.

anyway a big thank you to helmi for helping me design my blog skin :] CHEESE..

Sad haha

2008-12-14T08:58:00.000-08:00

Not knowing why but i feel absolutely sad right now, after visiting two different countries i found out that i had misplaced my happiness and now it is lost.. If it isn't misplaced than there must be a reason for the loss of happiness that was once within me.. despite misplacing it, i have unknowingly discovered sadness, although sadness isn't a diesease but it has the power to weaken and hurt someone just like dieseases and viruses..

Now i'm all soften up, just like a plate of jelly, which wobbles violently at the slightest push.. kind of touchy right now.. haha

Kind of miss someone right now, after seeing her during POP, old memories filled with sentimental flooded my brain, at that moment, all i wanted is to turn back time and be in the POP during 2007.. hope time could just pause, hope everything in this world is under my control.. but all this hopes that i have just mention are impossible..

If she ever see this i would like to let her know that she will never be forgotten as she will be place right in my heart like how she places me in hers.

Anyway i have to sleep now, good night all

Tired

2008-11-19T07:42:00.001-08:00

Tired of you, Tired of camp, Tired of loving, Tired of talking, Tired of caring, Tired of moving on, Tired of studying, Tired of everything including living..

will i be able to get over this?? will i be able?? who knows.. anyway the new me, isn't me.. find it rather stupid to not be me and instead be someone else.. i tried slacking but just couldn;t there is just too much things i have to do and accomplish, haiz.. i guess i will change to the person i use to be, the sec1 me :) anyway just to let all you guys out there know, dont bully me anymore i hate it.. and its not my fault for being stupid, and dumb. If you guys find it fun to bully your SENIOR by disgracing them or making them looking stupid, than dont look for me, i am not interested in entertainin u guys

2008-11-06T19:42:00.001-08:00

Everything has ended, its over. Time to start a new, bye =)

Sad And Sick

2008-11-04T22:19:00.000-08:00

Haiz.. shouldn't have went swimming on a rainy day, now i'm bedridden, having block nose, cough, giddiness and strong headaches.. Hate rains, it always spoils mood..
Hm band camp is coming must prepare myself le, after this camp i wont be able to attend all the band practises before pop.. going overseas again straight after the korea trip. Hope i wont fall sick while going on overseas trip.

Missing you badly, in just one year our relationship has change greatly from just mere friends to someone close and later distanced, now when i look back everything seems to be like a dream, a beautiful dream.. Although life has to go on, but i really wish, hope and want time to stop and i can stay in the past when u and i spend great times together smiling and laughing. Haiz.. guess its fated, fated that i had to say something so sensitive that made you distanced away from me, i do not know how to mend this relationship, all i could say is sorry, a word that mean nothing to you. Never mind life has to go on, the time i spend with you will be engrave in me, never will i forget you and the day when we are distanced, 26/9/2008, at 8.58pm your very last caring word for me. Hm i guess i shall end here, my body couldn't go on anymore, hope i dont die :]

beautiful sentosa :]

2008-10-27T04:36:00.000-07:00

hmm this was taken a few weeks ago :P anyway let the picture do the talking :) cheers
most pictures are taken in a transport instead of the surrounding :P ho ho

happy yet sad

2008-10-23T18:10:00.000-07:00

Hi i'm back o.o cheers haha, my internet is fix, great isn't it.
oh ya back to everyone favourite topic grades :)
hmm although i didn't get what i wanted but there was a very great improvement seen,
i got no fail isn't that great, nt just tat my maths from a 50 now a 80
HAHA hmm kind of happy but not very..

haha silly lamby,
though your grades has drop, but it doesn't mean u are bad, u have it in you de,
i know u can get btr :)
this eye paper may be much harder than ur mid year,
that is why there is a drop in your grades but to me its good enough ler,
the hard work u have put in the sacrifices u have made it has not gone to waste,
im sure of that :) work hard for 2009 you can de :)

haiz.. there are some things i want to tell you, but i'm just too shy to bring it up to you..
After the exam, things seems to have change, am i too sensitive or??
haiz i'm not sure why but my heart feels bitter.. i guess i got a overdose of "missing" pill..
nvm who cares abt how i feel, how you feel is much important..
one day if you walk out of my life, i wont blame you or get unhappy over it
if walking out of my life can give you happiness,
a little sacrifice from me wont cause any big problem bah,
all i want is to see is you being happy like before :)

AHHH i would like her to know that i love her, even if time is going to bring us apart,
memories of the time i love you will be in my heart forever till the day i die
and nvr will i throw it aside.. i wish that my love for you can last,
and in my heart i believe it can last till the day i die,
because right at the middle of it has your beautiful name engrave on it, nvr will it be erase
or destroyed :) sometimes when i think of you leaving me, my heart feels bad,
it seems to be crying hoping that times stop and you could always be with me..
but it will nvr happen, i couldn't be selfish, snatchin away your love and your freedom of choice
nvm all i want to tell you is I LOVE YOU!! :)

Anw marilyn jia you i will support the decision you have make and the choice u pick for your subjects, cheers :)

Headaches

2008-09-24T03:53:00.001-07:00

Headaches.. haiz.. its hindering me.. i have been having headaches almost everyday and hour.. was unable to be attentive in class.. haiz.. guess maybe one day i may just die because of my headache.. maybe at a young age?? haha anyway no one view my blog either.. who cares im writing here.. just because i have no one to tell to.. and no one to bother about me.. maybe there is but.. nvm.. hope that freaking headache would go away.. maybe after my 30's ?? haiz missing someone badly now.. sometimes i am afraid that once i close my eyes i may not be able to wake up.. sometimes how i wish time could stop.. ""

Loving u is a wonderful thing.. although love hurts but the love i have for you is just too much to feel the hurt it gives.. i guess im feeling hurt now but nvm.. it will be better :] JIA YOU FOR YOUR EXAM!! Don't go NA or fail!! RAWR..

If i had just one wish.. i would wish for your happiness.. even if i could just wish my headaches off.. haizz..

What can i say?? I LOVE YOU :]

sigh

2008-09-18T06:25:00.000-07:00

i dislocated one of my finger!!! OMG.. haiz exams are around the corner must do something or else im going to fail my physics and history.. OH TIAN.. haiz study ar study.. and oh RAWR my art i got b3 great improvement wahaha nvm.. bleah.. guess i'm going to die soon haha(in your dreams want me to die wait 100 years later)

Im stupid

2008-09-08T20:03:00.000-07:00

I have thought about it and i'm seriously sorry to the girl i love most... I should not be influence by other people opinion about this relationship.. i'm seriously sorry to said all those to you and i hope you can forgive me.. i know things like this could not be forgotten in a few days, therefore i seriously hope you could accept my deepest apologies.. guess like before i hurt people feelings.. i guess there isn't anything to hide about i love her alot and that is the truth if you people think otherwise and want me to ignore her or anything than i would gladly close both my ears and ignore your words:]

Had a 5 day continuous headaches and giddiness wonder if im dead yet? hmm didn't go school, hope i don't miss out much stuff

RAWR

2008-09-02T17:15:00.000-07:00

Hmm guess last night was a very wet party... rained for a few hours, and i got drenched so didn't care less about having a umbrella over my head.. i suppose i'm going to be sick soon:] hmm last night was rather fun... just that i didn't end up in the pool Haha.. hmm guess kai jun and xin yi is right, i shouldn't be over caring... it annoys people only.. haiz...

And jun yi don't be a ku ku kai jun already open up to u ler.. u still ku ku stand there donno what to do.. haha

stupid kianhowe... u emoed all night!!! u better don't let me see u emo ler hor.. Haiz say nobody care for u.. i care about u ask u.. u tell me i give u advice u nvr take in.. nvm its up to u to decide..

Oh and happy 15th b'day davina RAWR

Geezz having serious headaches and body aches o.o guess i shall stop here..

Hmm xin yi i guess i will change on the points u stated last night.. maybe i loved her too much.. yeap guess i have to let go and don't keep doing annoying stuff..

Thx All hope you don't hate me WAHAHAHA

BLURRED!!

2008-08-28T04:25:00.000-07:00

Hmm guess i failed my ART.. i never completed it, after trying hard for the past 3hours after school, did not manage to complete it and in the end it got my head all mess up.. i took a 502 bus instead of a 185.. wasted my $1.60.. hmm nothing much to talk about.. hmm guess this is something extraordinary that happened to me today bah ok :] bye

Emotional

2008-08-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

RAWR today is marilyn birthday... guess what i gave her o.o?? wondering... nvm... went around lots of forgotten friendsters pictures... browse through pictures of some of my friends and than i realise.. how time flies, everything has change.. miss the past but than life has to go on, life in the past seems simple and confusing at the same time... wish i had study harder, became a better and useful person so as to be able to teach and share my knowledge around with people i love...

my life as a 13years old kid look simple, yet it isn't but than the 14 year old yet 15 me yearns to go back to the past and feel how it was like before and wanted to make a change.. but than again i love the Malcolm i am now.. although im not sure if she loves me.. but i am sure of the love i have for her... tired of being emo<- self-blame ... i had decided to start a new life a new Malcolm.. hates science tuition loads!!! its on sunday morning 9AM gosh... guess my physics is going from bad to worst.. wish someone can help.. relying on that tuition teacher of mine i guess i will rather be self reliant instead..

RAWR i love you for who you are and not what you are~~

Why??

2008-08-18T06:09:00.000-07:00

Today was kind of emotional... afternoon wasn't smooth going... my playing is bad very bad.. nvr been better, haiz..

Morning, as usual mood swings.. either im happy or im sad, thats about it yeap.. boring life i guess?

Oh and a special incident today, i alighted bus 185 and cross the road slowly.. out of a sudden, a ferrari(if im not wrong) zoom straight at me.. if i remember correctly im standing on the road staring at the car heading towards me... alot of images ran through my head.. my parents crying.. me lying dead on the floor with patches of blood around me... me flying in the air before hitting the ground.. lots of image.. than within seconds the car zoom right past me.. it almost blew me off my feet, the air pressure almost make me fell on the floor.. some passerby stare and pointed fingers.. i smiled back, and continued walking.. hmm. was kind of angry with the driver, not because it nvr bang me, but because it almost took me away from this world.. this story seems abit fictional but in fact its true :]

Wonders??

2008-08-16T08:48:00.000-07:00

Although i'm having a serious headache... i still can't get my brain to stop working and sleep...
lots of things are running through my brain.. wondering when will the time come o.o? when i really find where i belong..

nvm i shall end here wondering if i could sleep?

Tired

2008-08-15T07:05:00.001-07:00

today was a rather "running day"... ran and ran.. that is what i did for the whole day, both legs are tired, half dead now... sitting infront of the computer~ woo today tried something dumb, i placed half of my body out.. of the railing at the 2nd storey of the new block.. hehe sounds stupid.. coz it is~

ok i shall end here... don't really have much to say...

hehe~ RAWR

2008-08-14T08:28:00.000-07:00

Yay a happy blog at last... kicked that old emo one away.. hehe link me people link me